Glad to see you back, I am very sorry for your loss. Although I have never personally gone though anything harder than losing grandparents and a teacher who was close my mom was young when her father died and her best friend was killed by cancer about 10 years later. In the case of her dad she watched him die in the hospital while in the room. So although I do not personally understand the pain that you are going though I have seen that same pain in my mothers eyes when she talks about those deaths. My prayers are with you and your family in the difficult time and for the repose of your sister.