i know i tend to come off as an asshole. it's just how i act online. i guess you could say that i just would rather be remember that way, then fade into obscurity. so, i'd understand if i didn't deserve an answer, but i just had to say this, ask it, talk about it.


a few weeks ago, my girlfriend of 2.5 years broke up with me...three days after we had attended her senior prom...and the night i arrived back at college for the week before finals. two weeks ago, after arriving home for the summer, i went to her house to pick up the stuff i'd left w/ her over the years, clothes...hoodies...ect.

Today, i finally went through the big bag of what i thought were just clothes. i found a set of dog tags, she'd been talking about getting me for something, my birthday i believe...and a bracelet i'd gotten engraved for her for our 2-year.
the dog tags said "Adam and Victoria forever" and "1-24-08"(our anniversary)

finding those things showed me that i'de been lying to myself for this entire month. I'm not fine with it. I understand why it can't work between us, but still...

i guess my question is when does it stop hurting?