And with a heavy heart...

[XX0wnsXY]

Well thay have set a date to remove my upper arm... I signed my arm's death warrent today and the "execution" will be July 26th, 2010... They would not let me video (something to do with sterlilization or something) but my surgeon has agreed to take photo's through out the surgery... it was explained that it would help with my "seperation anxiety" to visaully see the removal of such a significant part of my body... it is one thing to have limited, or even no use but an extremity still remaining... than to suddenly have none... I am told I will have to go through the hardest change in my life style, with no idea how long it could last... I am still not looking forward to this... the doctors tell me that they would be more worried if I was celebrating this event, than the way I actually feel... I wish this on no person, friend or foe... and unless you have or will (and I pray you don't), you can not understand what this is like, even if I could explain it myself...

I will try to stop by, as soon as I am able... I will be on a couple mor times between now and the 26th (to get in as much time as I possible can)... Though the server would not let me change my name... I should be under the name Chronic (if I can't change it...) And thank you everyone...

I can't imagine what it must be like to know that you are inevitably losing something you've been used to having all your life. I don't know much about this sort of thing but I do know that Phantom pains are a serious issue that often follow limb removal, and hopefully they will be able to prepare you well enough to cope.

Again, I wish you the best of luck and I hope you keep strong through this hardship.

[hallwagner]

aw man that fucking sucks, best wishes