The only thing you said that I paid attention to is "you're surrounded by retardedness". This is absolutely true, and any admin (and probably any player) that has ever set foot in ZM knows this. Guess what? Being surrounded by retardedness all the time puts you a lot more on edge, so when some retard throws a grenade into your cade, you might give him a 5 minute break. Just because you're not the only retard in the game doesn't mean it's okay for you to do stupid crap.