You do need to relax Walter, take it easy from the bottle too, it's not the 1800's, there's other things to drink besides water, horse piss and booze. No one wants a drunk anymore and while there's better then the love of a good woman ( except for Loka, you just want to bang her once and then sneak out the window before she wakes up) , there's other things to pre-occupy your time with. Since you didn't get into the Marines maybe you could try the French Foreign Legion, I think you'll do well.